Blake: It's My Fault That Amy Winehouse Is An Addict - Page 2
'Then my wife, who I love with all my heart and soul, just started shaking violently in front of me.'
He said that he started crying as he lay her down in the recovery position, clearing her airways to prevent her from choking or biting her tongue.
'It was heartbreaking, seeing someone you love more than yourself, someone you would die for, someone you would kill for on the floor shaking.'
Worse still, the singer didn't even recognise him when she came round. 'I will go to my grave with that picture of Amy asking me, "Who are you? Who are you?"
'I knew f***ing then that I had ruined something beautiful. It was all my fault. It was the worst thing that has ever happened to me in my life.'
Blake is still in rehab, and says that when he gets out there will be no reconciliation:
'When I see pictures of Amy and the state she’s in it tears my heart out. I just want to pick her up and help her.'But I can’t — because I’m the man who caused it all. It scares me to death that I can’t fix Amy.
'I will do anything for her — and that includes walking away.'
He has vehemently denied that he has been planning a divorce in order to get a share of the singer's £10million fortune.
'I’m not interested in her money,' he said. 'I always offered to do a pre-nuptial agreement before we got married.
'It doesn’t matter if I turn up in the divorce court homeless and with no shoes on, I’m not taking a single penny off her.'
Fielder-Civil spoke of his dream that he and Amy could one day have a future together. 'In an ideal world me and Amy would live together in a nice house with our two kids and all of this would be a distant f****** memory.'
'What people don’t realise is that Amy is an amazing wife, an amazing home-maker and a beautiful figure in the home.
'You would be surprised the domestic bliss you can have with Amy just doing the cooking and caring for you.
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